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I went to Baclaran Church yesterday with my mother because we bought my grad dress. But because it was my first time visiting Baclaran Church, I had to make a wish. It’s kind of a belief I guess. The first time you visit a church, make a wish and it will come true. I did not, however, make a wish. I talked with God. Here’s the gist of it (translated into English already):

Hey God, long time no see, long time no talk.

Well… talking, I do say “My God, why have You forsaken me?” when I’m getting a really bad call, so maybe not really long time no talk. I was afraid that I’ll melt when I step inside Your house though. I should be making a wish, but You probably think that I’m not worthy, because I DO think that I’m not worthy. I don’t want You to think that I’m talking to You right now just because I want to make a wish. I know You can’t reply to me to answer me back. You only take Inbound calls, and You don’t do outbound

I would like to thank You for everything You’ve done and given me until now. I’ve got a really blessed life even if I say sometimes otherwise. I don’t like comparing lives but I do know that I wouldn’t want to be in half the population’s shoes. Sometimes, I wonder if the people I meet on the streets is You, like that one guy who asked me for money because his pocket got picked. I gave him P100 and wondered if You were testing me. I never got the money back, not like I was expecting. I’ll just think it was You and You’ll be giving it back to me more than a million times.

God, I may not pray much. I may not be asking a lot either. But please believe that I only believe in You and no other gods, that I DO believe in You and Your power, that I have my faith in You, and I’m just showing it through my weird ways. I’m eternally grateful. I know I sin a lot and do a lot of bad things. I don’t regret any of the bad things I’ve done because I know I’m going to suffer for it anyway. I’ll just treat it as a lesson learned each time.

God, I’m not really wishing for anything, like I hope I get a good career or more money. I don’t need to ask you to continue watching me and blessing me with Your goodness, because I know that goes without asking. Heck, even if I asked You to stop watching over me, I know You still will. And I really thank You for that. I may be hoping for a better world, a better life, lower prices of things especially food, but those things aren’t controlled by You. I may be hoping that my family won’t continue to fall apart, or that I get my stats up, but those things aren’t controlled by You either. You’ve given us full control of our lives and it’s up to us on how to live it.

God, again, thank You. I do hope, however, that I find a dress that will fit me today. See you around, God.

I did find a dress that fits me nicely. God, thanks.

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