MMMiii!

isang araw sa buhay ni bekang, …. wala lang. bwisit ang araw na to. wala lang.

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It’s always has to end like this… and yet, i’m stupid to let him. i’m always hurting coz of him. and yet, i allow him to.

i guess…. i’m just like this. born to be sad.

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Hmmm… Ok ok… update.

I feel like my bubble burst. i was so excited about this job i was hoping to have. Katrina sidelines with tutoring somewhere in Katipunan Ave.. and well, she was supposed to get me in it… but she’s always busy and everything. … *sigh* I’m in really really deep shit. I need to get money soon somehow. -_-;

Hmmmm………………………. Well, other than that, yeah, i admit i’m not taking my studies too seriously Except my Rizal which is the only one worthy at the moment to study in. i mean… i wake up everyday and ask myself why i’m still attending classes when i know i dun wanna pay attention… etc etc etc. I know I was stupid. i was wrong. it was a big mistake. BUT I DO NOT REGRET ANYTHING!! I mean, I’d love to say if only i took european languages or something else etc etc etc but i don’t! i mean, being in ece was already an accomplishment. a big big accomplishment. And i’ll forever think of that as one of my successes and not as my failure.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. All my wrongs and stuff like that. All the people i loved and hated and everything… It’s like… i’m so wrong in a lot of things i do or say and everything.. and yeah, i’ve lost some old ones and made some new ones…. renewed old ones…. blah… But i still feel lonely most of the time… maybe coz i’m always doing all the wrong stuff…. heh. i don’t really care now. i’m turning 20 soon and in five years i’ll have to fulfill my promise to myself.. :P

Tomorrow i have to get an application form for shifting to CSSP(College of Social Sciences and Philosophy) >_< i was such an idiot last week. I applied for a form for CAL(College of Arts and Letters) coz I thought that Linguistics was under it. so stupid..

oh and DAMN! I forgot to claim my TCG (True Copy of Grades) so i could compute my gen ed average…. If i’m not mistaken, i only have 2.075 … I NEED A GODDAMNED 2.000000 >_< *sigh* and with my Rizal exam result last time... i don't think i'll reach it..

Is it wrong if i’m sad all the time?? I try to make a good impession that I’m not. hahahha… always laughing, always smiling….

blah blah..

anyway, enough.

I’ll … dunno.. i’m wasting money again. but, i’ll go insane if i stay at home….

ayoko na -_-;

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TO THE FILIPINO VOTERS OUT THERE

The ‘wasted vote’

ON SEVERAL occasions these past weeks, friends have raised the issue of he “wasted vote.” Raul Roco, they say, may be out of the running, having already slipped to third, if one goes by the Social Weather Stations survey. Whatever the reason, he may soon be hard put to catch up with either Fernando Poe, Jr or Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo. A vote for him would be sayang. Better if one just voted either for Fernando Poe, Jr or Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo, depending on who one thinks is the lesser evil.

Well, first off, the premise is wrong. I myself suspect this line is something the Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo camp is peddling, its strategy being first to take Roco out of the running in the public eye, reducing the contest to a choice between Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo or Fernando Poe, Jr, and second to drumbeat enough fear of Fernando Poe, Jr–he will be Erap Part 2–to drive the voters to Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo.

I myself do not buy it. I’ve already advanced my theory on the last SWS survey which had Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo climbing to second and Roco slipping to third. I think it was the combined result of Noli de Castro running as Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo’s partner and Roco having near-zero visibility in media for a couple of months before the survey came out. The last time Roco landed on the front pages of newspapers was when he launched the Alliance of Hope on National Heroes Day. Since then, nothing.

The next surveys may yet produce changes in the rankings of the presidential candidates for a couple of reasons. First, the Noli factor would already have been factored in by the public. It would have lost its novelty and impact. And the perception that Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo is resorting to dirty tricks–ousting Fernando Poe, Jr through the citizenship issue, appointing two known scalawags and diehard supporters to the Comelec, prosecuting the Kawal officers for saying she ordered her favorite generals to derail the campaign of the other candidates–could boomerang on her, bringing her back to the same position she occupied before.

And Roco has been gaining media mileage of late. His visibility has increased.

If the question were merely “winnability,” I should think the wasted vote would be the one thrown to Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo. I can’t see how she can win against Fernando Poe, Jr. Like I said before, she has never topped a survey. And despite campaigning for three and a half years (that is what she has been doing all this time, with those giant billboards proclaiming her virtues) and resorting to below-the-belt tactics (these elections are threatening to become dirtier than when Marcos sought a second term in 1969), all she has to show for it is that she is now “within striking distance” of Fernando Poe, Jr. In past presidential contests, the incumbent was the candidate to beat. All the rest tried to be within striking distance of him. This is the only case I know where the incumbent is claiming to be within striking distance of a challenger.

But far more importantly, I don’t buy the concept of the “wasted vote.” The only wasted vote as far as I can see is the one you give to a candidate you do not believe in simply because you think he or she has a chance to win. That is boundless waste, not least because it stands to waste the country. To this day, I do not regret not having voted for Erap in 1998. To this day, I do not see that I wasted my vote voting for somebody else. If there was any “wasted vote,” it was the one that went to Erap. That is so not just because he never got to finish his term but because people voted for him simply because “he was going to win anyway” whatever they did. People who do not want to appear like fools by voting for a “weak candidate” are on a straight path to it.

Correspondingly, the wasted vote is the one you do not give the candidate you believe in from the belief that he is “not likely to win.” That is a self-fulfilling prophecy, guaranteeing doom–and not just for your candidate. Like I keep saying, the only thing worse than being disempowered is having the power and not knowing you do. Or worse, knowing you do and abdicating it. The vote is a great power, and it is something we hold in our hands. The victory of candidates is not written in the stars, it is written in our hearts. The victory of candidates is not foreordained, it is decided by us. We do not vote for candidates, they do not win. We vote for candidates, they win.

Even if the candidate you believe in is not a popular one, what of it? Voting is not just something you do for a candidate, it is something you do for yourself. Or to yourself. Elections are a test of character, but it is not just a test of character for the candidate, it is a test of character for the voter, too. It’s not just the candidate who’s on trial in elections, it is you, too. When you vote, you do not just decide the kind of life you want for the nation, you decide what kind of life you want for yourself. You can choose either the life of a lemming and throw yourself off a cliff because everybody is doing so or the life of a human being and act as reason and conviction tell you to.

At the end of the day, you do not just have to live with the candidate you inflicted on the nation, you have to live with yourself and the wound you inflicted on yourself. You can’t be true to yourself, you can’t be true to the nation. Stop complaining about this country going nowhere. There is no vote that is wasted on a candidate you believe is fit to run this country, whether he wins or not. You do not win when you vote a fool or a tyrant into office because he or she is the “strong candidate,” you lose–even if he or she wins. Above all when he or she wins. And you do not lose when you vote for a candidate as your conscience bids, you win–even if he or she loses. Above all if he or she loses: It is but the beginning of struggle.

The “wasted vote” is a spurious concept. You keep worrying about it, you’re wasting your time, your energy and your life.

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— In upsaver@yahoogroups.com, Winson Galletes wrote:

Well, sad truth. but i guess it could do more good than harm.

First of all, he get it straight as an arrow. We can’t really connect with

our Asian

neighbors culturally or historically or philosophically. Our only link

could be the Fil-Chinese who some might not even want to consider

themselves Filipino but more of a Chinese. Main reason

is the 330 years of Spanish then 50 years of American occupation. Somehow,

they made our history. WE DIDN’T.

Also we seemed to degrade ourselves more than anyone else. How many of us

really

think Filipino crafts are better or at par with that of others?

I believe that we are mostly a society of imitation. Piracy is but a common

thing. So how could we possibly say it’s Philippine made when all we do is

copy existing products instead of developing our own? I urged everyone to

take this as a challenge instead of treating it like an insult. It is a

bitter pill to swallow but it is the truth. It’s time for Filipinos to unite.

WINSON FOR PRESIDENT…. :)

>Subject: a degrading letter to all filipinos by Art Bell, U.S. Radio Host

>

>

>>Got this from the Internet. Interesting. Please pass.

>> >

>>

>> >

>> >I would urge all progressive people to write to the radio network

>>that

>>carries Art Bell’s programs (he is into UFOs, Lost city of Atlantis etc

>>type

>>of stuff) and attach this hate letter to protest the network carrying

>>anything by this racist scum. This is even worse than I have seen

>>against

>>Indians and African-Americans lately.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >We need to care about each other. This kind of racist filth against

>>Filipinos is an attack not only against Filipinos, it is an attack

>>against

>>basic logic, basic facts and humanity.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Jim Craven

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Subject: FW: HATE LETTER

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >This is a very disturbing open E-mail letter to all Filipinos around

>>the

>>world; specially here in North America!, from a man who has the power

>>to

>>reach million of people. (he’s a radio talk host) Please read

>>on…………..

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >This is an open letter email by Art Bell, a radio talk show host in

>>Nevada

>>(more info in the email itself). Here is yet another person who has

>>taken

>>advantage of his power and privilege to use hateful words and racial

>>stereotypes that breed further ignorance and intolerance in our

>>society.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Please forward this to as many people as you can…and in case you

>>have

>>already received this, I apologize for the copy…

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Art Bell is a talk radio host who has two shows that he broadcasts

>>from

>>his home in Nevada, that is rebroadcast by 400 stations across the

>>country.

>>He’s written 2 books. He lived in Okinawa, Japan for some years and had

>>a

>>radio program on the English station here. And, though

>> >

>> >it’s hard to believe after reading the following letter from him, he

>>actually has been to the Philippines (he’s traveled fairly extensively

>>around the world).

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Check out his website to listed at the end to get a glimpse at this

>>fool

>>who’s spreading this hateful ignorance. And check his wife as well.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >This letter is so degrading, I think it’s really important that

>>everybody

>>read this and not attack him, but respond to him in a civilized manner

>>because otherwise his thoughts will be reaffirmed. Understand that not

>>everyone has a viewpoint like we do, and that this is an opinion of

>>someone

>>who hopefully can be changed only by civil actions.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >THE E-MAIL………………………………………………….

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Subject: Filipinos…..*make me puke* (Art Bell)

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >As we’ve all come to notice, in the past few decades, Filipinos have

>> >

>> >begun to infest the United States like some sort of disease. Their

>> >

>> >extensive involvement in the U.S. Armed Forces is proof of the trashy

>> >

>> >kind of qualities all filipinos tend to exhibit on a regular basis.

>> >

>> >You can see this clearly by studying the attitudes and cultural Icons

>> >

>> >of most Filipino Americans. Origins of Pinoys/Pinays: Are they really

>> >

>> >asian? Well we’ve come to accept the fact the filipinos come from a

>>part

>> >

>> >of the world known as South East Asia. But the term “Asia” is used in

>> >

>> >the wrong way. You may notice that contemporary Filipino Americans

>>try

>> >

>> >very hard to associate themselves with groups that we know as Asian.

>> >

>> >I cannot count the number of times I have seen a ‘Third World’

>>Filipino

>> >

>> >try to connect themselves to the chinese or Japanese people. There is

>> >

>> >no connection and here’s why. The Philippines is a Third World

>>country.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Nothing respectable has EVER been created by Filipino people during

>>our

>> >

>> >entire human history. Young filipino men in America have become

>>obsessed

>> >

>> >with “import racing”. They have an enormously perverted affection for

>> >

>> >Japanese cars. It’s a common phenomenon. In their minds, these

>>filipinos

>> >

>> >somehow believe that they are asian and that it somehow connects them

>>to

>> >

>> >Japanese people and japanese cars. They often take credit for the

>>ingenuity

>> >

>> >of Japanese people and say how it’s an “Asian thing”. This

>>term…”Asian

>>thing”

>> >

>> >derived directly from African American slang “black thang”. “It’s a

>>black

>> >

>> >thang.” “It’s an asian thang.” You can see the connection. It’s even

>>funnier

>> >

>> >that, in Japan, Filipinos are heavily discriminated against. The only

>>filipinos

>> >

>> >that can live successfully in Japan are the filipino prostitutes. But

>>that’s

>> >

>> >the case for most Filipino people no matter where they live in the

>>world.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Now we’ve come down to this fact…and it is a fact. Nothing in

>>Filipino

>> >

>> >Culture can be seen as Asian. They have no architectural, artistic,

>>or

>>cultural

>> >

>> >influence which is in ANY way, asian. Thinking of the great countries

>>in

>>Asia such

>> >

>> >as Japan, Korea, and China there is no way you can possibly connect

>>the

>>Philippine Islands.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >This assault by filipino americans to connect themselves with the

>>great

>> >

>> >peoples of North East Asia is foul and disgusting.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Try visiting a young filipino’s web site too. You’ll see something

>>called

>> >

>> >the “Asian IRC Ring”. It has to do with the chatrooms. The most

>>horrible

>>thing

>> >

>> >about this is that these TRASHY people are trying to associate

>>themselves

>>with

>> >

>> >Asia again!! People in Asia don’t act like, this at all.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >What we are seeing here is the natural Filipino in it’s element with

>>full

>> >

>> >access to technology and this is how they act! You will consistently

>>see

>> >

>> >this behavior over and over again. Another interesting thing is that

>>these

>> >

>> >”thirdworld” people also frequent IRC chatrooms such as #chinese

>>#japan

>> >

>> >and #asian. They must believe that they are some how related racially

>>or

>> >

>> >culturally to North Asians.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >But it’s completely WRONG! There might have been some distant contact

>> >

>> >With China and even less with Japan during World War II, but these

>>people

>> >

>> >are actually more closely related to african americans and Mexican

>>americans.

>> >

>> >Do the parents of these young filipinos know what’s going on? Would

>>they

>> >

>> >accept this? I believe that they would and do. This is the natural

>>”Trash”

>> >

>> >element in filipinos manifesting itself.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Nothing good has ever come from Philippines and I don’t believe

>>anything

>> >

>> >good ever will.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Recognizing your Roots (A Message to Filipinos).

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >To all filipino people:

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Please recognize your ROOTS!

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >You come from the Third World! You country is a disgusting and filthy

>> >

>> >place. Most people there live in poverty! Your culture has MUCH MORE

>> >

>> >SPANISH influence than chinese, and absolutely no JAPANESE influence

>> >

>> >whatsoever. People in Japan and China, do not act like you. They do

>>not

>> >

>> >constantly talk about sex and they have a MUCH HIGHER level of

>>RESPECT for

>> >

>> >each other.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >There is NO WAY that you can connect yourself to Asia other than

>> >

>> >location.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Your culture and technological advancement does not even come CLOSE

>>to

>> >

>> >What Chinese, people have done in the past and what Japanese and

>>Korean

>> >

>> >people are doing now!

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Everything you do is distinctly filipino. You cannot take credit for

>> >

>> >Japanese cars, video games, or Hentai! It’s not an “asian

>> >

>> >thing” it’s, an “American thing”.

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >You have no concept of culture..no concept of asian ideas or asian

>> >

>> >philosophy!

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> >Can you demonstrate how you use Confucianism or Taoism in you

>>everyday

>> >

>> >life?? You can’t. And you will NEVER be able to. I understand that

>>you

>> >

>> >are trying to create an identity for yourselves as young people…

>>but it

>> >

>> >is NOT related to Asia. Your Identity is Filipino. That’s all you

>>are.

>> >

>> >Just Filipino. Think about what that means….

>> >

>> >

>> >

>> > Sincerely,

>> >

>> > Art

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PUTANGINA!!!!

day started waking up later than i should have then turned on tv to find out that there was a transport strike. had to pay extra for transpo to get to school coz classes (my uni) didn’t get suspended…. hmm… walked home .. 40 minute walk

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